Ever wondered what is your dream job?? Something u'd love to do, something u can never be bored of??
Some of the dream jobs i can think of:
Travel Show Host: This job wud be absolutely amazing. U r travelling to unknown destinations in the finest, living in the finest hotels, meeting so many different people and that also for free... wow!!!
Food Critique: Eating out lavish dishes served by five star hotels or eating at roadside chaat walas... And u get paid for this... Man!! I wish i cud do this!!
Director of Sleep: All u got to do is to sleep in various travel lodges three or four times a week. Just to ensure that the beds are upto the standards. So all u got to do is snooze on the job :P
Bikini Shoot Photo Reflector Holder (This one's for the guys) The description of the job u can imagine urself ;-) Maybe u'll get lucky, if u r gud looking.
Island Caretaker: An island for urself!! Wat more cud u want from ur life. U'll have the luxury of working only 12 hrs a month, beach combing a tropical island, swimming, snorkeling, living in a sprawling beach house and collecting cool cash for maintaining a photoblog and a diary. Gosh!! When are they hiring!!
Chocolate Taster: tasting the delectable chocolates... milk chocolate, dark chocolates, wafer chocolates, Swiss chocolates, and so many more... my mouth is already watering...
There cud be lot more of such jobs, which r just waiting to be explored.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Sugar n Spice and Everything Nice- The Spiral
The spiral still makes me tizzy wenever I look back at it.
Amazingly, I had entered the spiral long before I actually realized I was treading on it. And once I realized that i was in the spiral, i didnt want to go out of beacuse i thot i wud a long stretch and i thot I wud see beautiful pink and purple flowers, crystal clear blue water, lush green trees, and big multi coloured butterflies.
Initial part of the spiral was full of surprises and each day was discovering something new, some thing wonderful. But as i walked along, it wasnt the same. It became darker and dirtier. I kept walking because i kept imagining this wud change. But it was to dark to see that scenery had changed, It was too dark for me to realize that I should have walked out of the circle. I kept walking, but now it was dark and the stench was too overpowering for me. Finally there was a little light, that wen i realised what was around me. I moved out, but i wasnt completely out.
I enetered the smaller circle. I was cautious this time. I forced myself not to expect, yet I did. Yet again the circle didnt change. It was dirty and stinky as usual. I soothed myself by saying "some places never change." Again I moved out.
But yet again the circle succeeded in calling me back. This tym I was very cautious. This tym I was just waiting for a reason to come out. And expected the circle did give me a reason to come out of it. It did live "up" to my expectations.
And now wen i look back at the circle, I feel happy that i left it. Call me a sadist, but I feel happy that the circle is stinking and rotting. But, i feel sad because I expected so much more from the spiral and the spiral couldnt even give me a decent road to walk on. I know I dont want to look back at the spiral again, but wenever I do I feel pity for it.
Amazingly, I had entered the spiral long before I actually realized I was treading on it. And once I realized that i was in the spiral, i didnt want to go out of beacuse i thot i wud a long stretch and i thot I wud see beautiful pink and purple flowers, crystal clear blue water, lush green trees, and big multi coloured butterflies.
Initial part of the spiral was full of surprises and each day was discovering something new, some thing wonderful. But as i walked along, it wasnt the same. It became darker and dirtier. I kept walking because i kept imagining this wud change. But it was to dark to see that scenery had changed, It was too dark for me to realize that I should have walked out of the circle. I kept walking, but now it was dark and the stench was too overpowering for me. Finally there was a little light, that wen i realised what was around me. I moved out, but i wasnt completely out.
I enetered the smaller circle. I was cautious this time. I forced myself not to expect, yet I did. Yet again the circle didnt change. It was dirty and stinky as usual. I soothed myself by saying "some places never change." Again I moved out.
But yet again the circle succeeded in calling me back. This tym I was very cautious. This tym I was just waiting for a reason to come out. And expected the circle did give me a reason to come out of it. It did live "up" to my expectations.
And now wen i look back at the circle, I feel happy that i left it. Call me a sadist, but I feel happy that the circle is stinking and rotting. But, i feel sad because I expected so much more from the spiral and the spiral couldnt even give me a decent road to walk on. I know I dont want to look back at the spiral again, but wenever I do I feel pity for it.
Sugar and Spice and Everything Nice- The long stretch
Right now I am contemplating whether to write about the long stretch, the spiral, or the desert. Whether i shud go in a sequence or pick up roads randomly. I think a sequence wud be good... it always easier to understand things wen they r in a sequence!!!
I had crossed the "long road" long before I actually thread on it. And, it was not just once but many times. The road didnt seem that interesting to me, so i never bothered
myself abt it, back then. But one day, wen i was crossing the road I just happened to glance at it. Just a glance and i was amazed by the beauty I saw there. The road which i thot i would never tread was the road i wanted to go on. I had my inhibitions regarding that road. But it was all written, i had to go on it. So my journey on the long road started. I was fun, it was interesting, it was rejuvinating. The road was beautiful, clean, and lined with trees. On both sides of the road there was green grass. The road nurtured me, it gave me food when i was hungry, it gave me water wen i was thirsty, and it gave me shade wen i was tired. Each day, it taught me how to live and how to provide.
But the road wasn't going to take me to my destination. It was going somewhere else. I knew I had to give it up or else i wud have had to change my destination. It was tuff, it still is!! But I hope one day wen both me and the road have reached our destinations we meet again and restart our journey again. One day... And i know that day will come...
I had crossed the "long road" long before I actually thread on it. And, it was not just once but many times. The road didnt seem that interesting to me, so i never bothered
myself abt it, back then. But one day, wen i was crossing the road I just happened to glance at it. Just a glance and i was amazed by the beauty I saw there. The road which i thot i would never tread was the road i wanted to go on. I had my inhibitions regarding that road. But it was all written, i had to go on it. So my journey on the long road started. I was fun, it was interesting, it was rejuvinating. The road was beautiful, clean, and lined with trees. On both sides of the road there was green grass. The road nurtured me, it gave me food when i was hungry, it gave me water wen i was thirsty, and it gave me shade wen i was tired. Each day, it taught me how to live and how to provide.But the road wasn't going to take me to my destination. It was going somewhere else. I knew I had to give it up or else i wud have had to change my destination. It was tuff, it still is!! But I hope one day wen both me and the road have reached our destinations we meet again and restart our journey again. One day... And i know that day will come...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
And i once again travelled back in time...
It's 12 30 AM. I have no clue why I am awake. Maybe to write the specification (which I definitely am not doing) rather im surfing the tv channels to find something to watch, sketching in between, munching etc etc...
While surfing tv channels I found "The identity" was coming on HBO. Waooh...
And the memories came shooting back... I was in 2nd year when i had seen the movie.
Ana, dhi, n I were sitting in room no. 23/3 T-V hstl (my room) n talking. It was about 2 o'clock n something happened. I became extremely restless n irritated. Dhi n Ana were feeling sleepy n I wasn't. I wouldn't let them sleep. So, Ana recommended me this movie. She had recently seen it and she had liked it. So, I said okay n I went to 23/6 (Dhi's room) to watch the movie. I saw the movie n I was totally confused. U can imagine my plight restless, irritated, frustrated, n now I didnt even understand the movie!!! Uff... All this tym Ana was talkin to Jai. So at around 4 30 she enters the room n asks howz it going... I was totally distraught. I didnt understand the movie, wats happening in this movie??? HELP!!!! Ana came in, n we discussed... She explained the whole movie to me... Then my pentium 2 processor (my brain) started working... Ohh !! this happens... It was around 6 o'clock when we finally slept... (This was a weekday n next morning we both has classes at 9 n we attended those!!)
Today, watching this movie brought back all the memories of that cold wintry night, and all the other night ups we had in the hslt, all the pranks we played, the dance parties, the achar parties, the ole ole ole mera baeby, n how can i forget the BKA.
And now watching the movie, im again confused... Maybe i need Ana again to explain me the movie!! Gosh the capacitors in my brain need recharging...
While surfing tv channels I found "The identity" was coming on HBO. Waooh...
And the memories came shooting back... I was in 2nd year when i had seen the movie.
Ana, dhi, n I were sitting in room no. 23/3 T-V hstl (my room) n talking. It was about 2 o'clock n something happened. I became extremely restless n irritated. Dhi n Ana were feeling sleepy n I wasn't. I wouldn't let them sleep. So, Ana recommended me this movie. She had recently seen it and she had liked it. So, I said okay n I went to 23/6 (Dhi's room) to watch the movie. I saw the movie n I was totally confused. U can imagine my plight restless, irritated, frustrated, n now I didnt even understand the movie!!! Uff... All this tym Ana was talkin to Jai. So at around 4 30 she enters the room n asks howz it going... I was totally distraught. I didnt understand the movie, wats happening in this movie??? HELP!!!! Ana came in, n we discussed... She explained the whole movie to me... Then my pentium 2 processor (my brain) started working... Ohh !! this happens... It was around 6 o'clock when we finally slept... (This was a weekday n next morning we both has classes at 9 n we attended those!!)
Today, watching this movie brought back all the memories of that cold wintry night, and all the other night ups we had in the hslt, all the pranks we played, the dance parties, the achar parties, the ole ole ole mera baeby, n how can i forget the BKA.
And now watching the movie, im again confused... Maybe i need Ana again to explain me the movie!! Gosh the capacitors in my brain need recharging...
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
And I Cried
I cried today,
I cried because i hurt someone,
I cried because i was hurt by someone.
I cried because i could see no future,
I cried because i couldn't remember the past.
I cried for myself and I cried for you.
I cried till i could cry no more,
I cried till i couldn't find a reason to cry anymore.
I cried till i was happy once more
And had let it out for more...
I cried because i hurt someone,
I cried because i was hurt by someone.
I cried because i could see no future,
I cried because i couldn't remember the past.
I cried for myself and I cried for you.
I cried till i could cry no more,
I cried till i couldn't find a reason to cry anymore.
I cried till i was happy once more
And had let it out for more...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Sugar n Spice n Everything Nice- The Story
I ve been wanting to use this title since a long tym... But the right content never came across. Today i think i have some appropriate content for it :P
It is been exactly 22 years 6 months and 11 days since the tym i gasped for my first breath... a few hrs lesser since my first cry and maybe a few days lesser since my first laugh or smile...
Life for the initial 17 years were sometwat insignificant... i didnt really know wat the world is all abt... n i didnt bother myself with the trivialities of life.
The rest 5 yrs 6 months and 11 days have been a journey... Ups n downs, long stretches, spirals, parallel roads, round abouts, branching roads, and dead ends. I've seen beautiful valleys and hideous dungeons. Everyday I've learnt an aspect of life that is ugly yet beautiful in its own way. Every road that i've tread on has been invigorating. I've seen these ups n downs because I chose the road, knowing that it'll show me places i've never seen before. At times, I thought that these ups n downs would lead to deadends, but actually they were long stretches which eventually branched out. I chose one road over the other because I knew there wasn't a middle path. But the sceneries of the long stretches remain forever. N i do think wat wud i have seen if i had taken the other road. But i can never tell because i'll never tread that road again. Maybe someday that road will meet my road and everything would be the same. There are times when the other road does cross the road I am travelling, for a moment i do think that it would go parallel with my road. But these stretches are short. They come n go, n i keep moving on my road with a promise to meet that road again.
I meet spirals on my way. I go in a circle, realize im back in the same place n the place has become dirtier. Let me give another try, but the scene doesn't change. Rather it gets darker. But still i move on only to reach a deadend. It is then i realize maybe it was a wrong turn, a wrong decision. I promise myself to be careful next tym. I chose that road bcoz it looked promising and I thot I cud reason out why i was choosing this road. But wen the reasons began to end, i cudnt give myself another reason to stay. So, i moved out of the spiral to see i've only reached a desert. The temptation to enter the spiral still remains but i dont want to go back again.
Now, I see the desert and barren land, the sun is too strong here. I shield myself from the sun and the wind. The sun burning me and the sand in the wind piercing my skin. I find ways to protect myself. I dig a hole n go inside. I see no sun n I see no road. I feel safe, yet i want to go out n i want to face the sun. Because im a traveller n i cant wait for the wind to die away. These are the days i might never see again. These are the moments i might never feel again.
So, i go out n see the view has changed. It isn't that windy and i can see a road ahead. I see the scene is changing. I see a river and lush green trees all along the river. I run to the road. To begin a new journey with a new zeal...
(Sequel to this blog shall follow describing each road in detail. So wait, for therez more to come.)
(FYI-- the roads represent my friends- some long lasting friends others whom i just regret calling friends!!)
It is been exactly 22 years 6 months and 11 days since the tym i gasped for my first breath... a few hrs lesser since my first cry and maybe a few days lesser since my first laugh or smile...
Life for the initial 17 years were sometwat insignificant... i didnt really know wat the world is all abt... n i didnt bother myself with the trivialities of life.
The rest 5 yrs 6 months and 11 days have been a journey... Ups n downs, long stretches, spirals, parallel roads, round abouts, branching roads, and dead ends. I've seen beautiful valleys and hideous dungeons. Everyday I've learnt an aspect of life that is ugly yet beautiful in its own way. Every road that i've tread on has been invigorating. I've seen these ups n downs because I chose the road, knowing that it'll show me places i've never seen before. At times, I thought that these ups n downs would lead to deadends, but actually they were long stretches which eventually branched out. I chose one road over the other because I knew there wasn't a middle path. But the sceneries of the long stretches remain forever. N i do think wat wud i have seen if i had taken the other road. But i can never tell because i'll never tread that road again. Maybe someday that road will meet my road and everything would be the same. There are times when the other road does cross the road I am travelling, for a moment i do think that it would go parallel with my road. But these stretches are short. They come n go, n i keep moving on my road with a promise to meet that road again.
I meet spirals on my way. I go in a circle, realize im back in the same place n the place has become dirtier. Let me give another try, but the scene doesn't change. Rather it gets darker. But still i move on only to reach a deadend. It is then i realize maybe it was a wrong turn, a wrong decision. I promise myself to be careful next tym. I chose that road bcoz it looked promising and I thot I cud reason out why i was choosing this road. But wen the reasons began to end, i cudnt give myself another reason to stay. So, i moved out of the spiral to see i've only reached a desert. The temptation to enter the spiral still remains but i dont want to go back again.
Now, I see the desert and barren land, the sun is too strong here. I shield myself from the sun and the wind. The sun burning me and the sand in the wind piercing my skin. I find ways to protect myself. I dig a hole n go inside. I see no sun n I see no road. I feel safe, yet i want to go out n i want to face the sun. Because im a traveller n i cant wait for the wind to die away. These are the days i might never see again. These are the moments i might never feel again.
So, i go out n see the view has changed. It isn't that windy and i can see a road ahead. I see the scene is changing. I see a river and lush green trees all along the river. I run to the road. To begin a new journey with a new zeal...
(Sequel to this blog shall follow describing each road in detail. So wait, for therez more to come.)
(FYI-- the roads represent my friends- some long lasting friends others whom i just regret calling friends!!)
Friday, May 8, 2009
today!!!-- wat a wonderful day!!
Today was a day full of surprises. I woke up, all excited!! full of energy. Ready to fight myself thru the day... Haiiii yaaah!!! got up, got ready... my today's Nick name "Haryali" because i was wearing my deep green T and green chappals!!
Went to office.. Ohh Att n Nis already in office... Good, i can give their gifts now itself (for the past 3 weeks every sat, sun or during a holiday, I've been making some drawings) Called Nis n pulled her to the conference room where Att was sitting... "There's something for you both!! Take happy bday in advance...LOL!!" (their bday's are months away) I had made ambigrams for them. Att's was thougher Nis's was simpler. Both of them were extremly happy after getting the ambigrams. They pput them in front of thier cubes. "Wow!! my art wud be famous here." I've been showing off a lot lately!! Almost everyone stopped by my cube asking me to make something for them. :) Even my boss said "The space below my name seems empty!!"
I smiled n said "Your name is too tuff!!" Cudn't have given a dumber reply. :P
Finally after all this i settle down in my cube.. Ahh check gmail, check orkut... Nothing nothing... then check my official mail... Hmm 2 mails from my mentor, inventor mail...ohk decent nothing special (gmail still open)... wat do i have to do today claim map, send response, and update claims n drawings... lots of work... lets get started!!!
Gmail.. i receive a mail... makes me happy, then makes me sad... No point being sad girl, you dont care anymore... dont reply, coz i dont want to!!
My boss come up to me... gud job!! praise praise!!... Me: smiling... "thanx"
Claim map tym... oh!! this is our invention.. very different ... cool!! 4 hrs n my claim map is done... woosh woosh swoosh...
Im jumping around in office. Go to Sasha's cube "Oe!! your name is very symmetrical... i ll make an ambigram for u..." Then i teach him how to make one... "dum dim dum ... la la la... tada... simple... there we go!! just one thing can u get me some drawing sheets... i dont have any at home." " ohk i'll get some" (But he forgets to get the drawing sheet!! Nothing for him this weekend)
Lunch tym...gol gappa's for lunch... "somebody pls take lunch from the canteen!! i want to have gol gappe" Att finally agrees n gets lunch... Then the technique for how to fill water in the gol gappa starts... Wow we treied everything, but cudnt pour the water inside without spilling!! We r the only one who are always laughing in the cafeteria... "I've to complete my claim map." So, i leave.
Hmm.. claim map!! wrote the argument... shud suffice!! chalo done... now update claims n drawings... hmm... "im tired" no have to do it... dum di dum dum di dum... finally done by 6:30 o clock...
In between updating the claims n drawings, i went to meet Att... i was jumping around.. literally jumping... I jump wen im stressed... Att " dont u kno there are ppl on the 5th floor" Me " i cant help it.. this makes me release the stress..." jump jump jump!! After some tym i get back to work.
Mail-mannnnnn... "I have a parcel!!" Me me... of all the ppl me!! Im all smiles... "who's it frm?? Oh girl!! that's so cute." It's my best friend. She remembered... I had asked her to send me chocolates... N she actually sent me some... No one has done that for me before... Thank you girl!! u never fail to surprise me...be it your chitter chatter abt ur umteen boyfriends or the little things u do for me...But, the parcel (rat kill) was liking an icing on the perfect day!!
Now filled with a new energy...
Response... ohk.. write email... dush dush dush... check check... yeah send... zoom it goes...
printouts!! yeah interns "dhokha de diya... i'll have to take out the printouts..." for 3 cases to be done over the weekend... which i seriously doubt i'll be doing, but seeing my deadlines. I dont think i have a choice.
it seems i have 5-6 kilo's of pages with me.. all to be done over the weekend... Can i do it?? Well lets see.. if not 3 at least two i have to do!!
email to mentor... da da da.... gzoommm...
Work for the weekend: it always starts with the spec( for the past 3 weeks i've been delaying it), then the 3 claim maps, and response... Cool!! Im loving it :(
But now i know the perfect recipe to be happy-- keep yourself busy!! i've been working my arse off past 3 weeks... but im enjoyin to the hilt... i dont have the time to think abt the stupidities of life n ppl... Im painting, im drawing.. Im doin the things i love to do... im living for others n im living for myself... im cribbing for mom... im happy n dreaming for more!!
Went to office.. Ohh Att n Nis already in office... Good, i can give their gifts now itself (for the past 3 weeks every sat, sun or during a holiday, I've been making some drawings) Called Nis n pulled her to the conference room where Att was sitting... "There's something for you both!! Take happy bday in advance...LOL!!" (their bday's are months away) I had made ambigrams for them. Att's was thougher Nis's was simpler. Both of them were extremly happy after getting the ambigrams. They pput them in front of thier cubes. "Wow!! my art wud be famous here." I've been showing off a lot lately!! Almost everyone stopped by my cube asking me to make something for them. :) Even my boss said "The space below my name seems empty!!"
I smiled n said "Your name is too tuff!!" Cudn't have given a dumber reply. :P
Finally after all this i settle down in my cube.. Ahh check gmail, check orkut... Nothing nothing... then check my official mail... Hmm 2 mails from my mentor, inventor mail...ohk decent nothing special (gmail still open)... wat do i have to do today claim map, send response, and update claims n drawings... lots of work... lets get started!!!
Gmail.. i receive a mail... makes me happy, then makes me sad... No point being sad girl, you dont care anymore... dont reply, coz i dont want to!!
My boss come up to me... gud job!! praise praise!!... Me: smiling... "thanx"
Claim map tym... oh!! this is our invention.. very different ... cool!! 4 hrs n my claim map is done... woosh woosh swoosh...
Im jumping around in office. Go to Sasha's cube "Oe!! your name is very symmetrical... i ll make an ambigram for u..." Then i teach him how to make one... "dum dim dum ... la la la... tada... simple... there we go!! just one thing can u get me some drawing sheets... i dont have any at home." " ohk i'll get some" (But he forgets to get the drawing sheet!! Nothing for him this weekend)
Lunch tym...gol gappa's for lunch... "somebody pls take lunch from the canteen!! i want to have gol gappe" Att finally agrees n gets lunch... Then the technique for how to fill water in the gol gappa starts... Wow we treied everything, but cudnt pour the water inside without spilling!! We r the only one who are always laughing in the cafeteria... "I've to complete my claim map." So, i leave.
Hmm.. claim map!! wrote the argument... shud suffice!! chalo done... now update claims n drawings... hmm... "im tired" no have to do it... dum di dum dum di dum... finally done by 6:30 o clock...
In between updating the claims n drawings, i went to meet Att... i was jumping around.. literally jumping... I jump wen im stressed... Att " dont u kno there are ppl on the 5th floor" Me " i cant help it.. this makes me release the stress..." jump jump jump!! After some tym i get back to work.
Mail-mannnnnn... "I have a parcel!!" Me me... of all the ppl me!! Im all smiles... "who's it frm?? Oh girl!! that's so cute." It's my best friend. She remembered... I had asked her to send me chocolates... N she actually sent me some... No one has done that for me before... Thank you girl!! u never fail to surprise me...be it your chitter chatter abt ur umteen boyfriends or the little things u do for me...But, the parcel (rat kill) was liking an icing on the perfect day!!
Now filled with a new energy...
Response... ohk.. write email... dush dush dush... check check... yeah send... zoom it goes...
printouts!! yeah interns "dhokha de diya... i'll have to take out the printouts..." for 3 cases to be done over the weekend... which i seriously doubt i'll be doing, but seeing my deadlines. I dont think i have a choice.
it seems i have 5-6 kilo's of pages with me.. all to be done over the weekend... Can i do it?? Well lets see.. if not 3 at least two i have to do!!
email to mentor... da da da.... gzoommm...
Work for the weekend: it always starts with the spec( for the past 3 weeks i've been delaying it), then the 3 claim maps, and response... Cool!! Im loving it :(
But now i know the perfect recipe to be happy-- keep yourself busy!! i've been working my arse off past 3 weeks... but im enjoyin to the hilt... i dont have the time to think abt the stupidities of life n ppl... Im painting, im drawing.. Im doin the things i love to do... im living for others n im living for myself... im cribbing for mom... im happy n dreaming for more!!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
a question???
Why do some people have an incessant need to criticize others?? N these are the people who can never see any positive in anything... they crib about everything around them... I fail to understand why are these people like this. So I ask u??
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Mom-- she is my world
It seems a long time, since the last tym i wrote... I seem to have grown up... or maybe the opposite...
Lately I've been missing mom like anything. It's just her presence that makes all the difference. A simple hug from her makes me forget all the worries of my life. Everything is simple and easy to deal with, if I have her beside me. N the best part is irritating her with my stupid logic-- at times she falls for it, at times she doesn't. But, it is always so much fun... The house feels like home when she is here. When she is here, I know home would always be in perfect shape, everything would be at its place. The food would be perfect, upto my liking n not the same old south indian taste in everything (yuk...) And on Sundays when she is here, I don't wait for company I can just go anywhere n everywhere with her...she is always game!!! Mom why aren't you coming home... I miss you...
Lately I've been missing mom like anything. It's just her presence that makes all the difference. A simple hug from her makes me forget all the worries of my life. Everything is simple and easy to deal with, if I have her beside me. N the best part is irritating her with my stupid logic-- at times she falls for it, at times she doesn't. But, it is always so much fun... The house feels like home when she is here. When she is here, I know home would always be in perfect shape, everything would be at its place. The food would be perfect, upto my liking n not the same old south indian taste in everything (yuk...) And on Sundays when she is here, I don't wait for company I can just go anywhere n everywhere with her...she is always game!!! Mom why aren't you coming home... I miss you...
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