Like the movies...

Why cant life be like a movie. Like the movie that starts with a somber note. A person in his lowest moments, struggling to come out of it. The person keeps struggling. And unlike real life, all the struggle pays. One hour into the movie, there is a high moment and everything is good after that. The person achieves whatever s/he has been wanting to achieve, finds his/her true love, and then it is all happy happy, heavenly bliss. (ahh!! so cute)

Free

Sitting on the stairs of Oxford bookstore yesterday, I lived a moment. In the shade of the building n the strong wind, I felt that the only moment that existed was now, right here and right now. And nothing apart from that existed. There was no baggage from past and no worries abt the future. I had totally forgotten everything. I was in a trance, hypnotized by the wind...

Parallel Worlds

I live in two different worlds.

The first world is the world where everyone is good. The purpose of everybody's life is to find love, to find happiness. There is no deceit, there are no betrayals, there are no false reasons. Everyone is what they show to be. What they are, they show. What they ain't, they never seem to be.

And the second is where, everything has a reason. A hidden n a dark meaning. Everybody's sole aim is to get back at the other person. They want to do better than him/her. Want and desires are there because they want what the other has got and not what they truly desire. Is their realness, their unreality or is their unrealness, their reality?

I don't know which world to believe. The first one looks too good to be real n the second one too scary to be true. I know there are all kinds of people, but what is their motive? Is it to find love or is it to pose...

Living alone

It's been 4 to 5 months that I have been living alone, with Mom visiting me every now n then and some arbit relatives coming over for a day or two. It's not that I have to do anything on my own. I have a cook, a helper bhaiya to take care of the house, and an Aayah who comes daily to do the cleaning. All in all I am living like a Princess. (I am a very spoilt kid, I know.)

Well, there can be another side to it to, one can think of it as a Princess kept in a tower. All by herself. Waiting for her prince charming to rescue her :P. But alas, I wouldn't let the Prince Charming to enter my house.

Anyways, there are some things I simply love about living alone:

1) I can keep my room as dirty as possible n there will be no one to bother me to clean up all the mess. The best part is that when I come back home in the evening everything would be in its place thanks to my Helper Bhaiya.

2) I can wake up and sleep at any time. At times I have the most atrocious sleep timings. I will sleep at 5p.m and wake up at 1 a.m. or I'll wake up 3 a.m. watch TV till 5 a.m then sleep again. Tell me would you have such freedom if you were sharing a room with someone?

3) I can do whatever I want to do. For e.g.-I can talk on the phone as much as I want- all day n all night.

4) It gives you time to pursue your interests. I have started painting n sketching more often now.

5) It teaches you how to enjoy by yourself. It teaches you how you can make yourself happy.

6) Recently(from today, to be more precise), I have started singing loudly, almost shouting (he he). Lets see next tym I meet one of my friends, if I can entertain them or not.

7) Every weekend I go to a new place, meet up with different people. N the best part is nobody asks me where r u going, with whom r u going, wen will u come come back, etc etc. (maybe because my parents trust me enuf n moreover I do tell them where I am going, so that they are not too worried. See I am a good kid.)

Points to remember (if you ever plan to stay the way I do):

1)Make sure that the cook is good. A bad meal means a bad day.

2) Make sure u have a lot of interests, only then ca u keep urself busy.

3) U should basically be a loner.

4) U should have at least one good friend with whom you can talk whenever u want to (2 a.m or 5 a.m he/she should be available).

5) Try staying like this only if you r not scared of the dark n you don't believe in ghosts and spirits.