25 lesser known facts abt me...

Well to tell u the truth i got this idea from Facebook, lets see if i can come up with 25 lesser known facts about me.

25) I'm 5 feet 6 inches tall, look more like my dad than my mom.

24) I love shopping, i buy clothes thinking i'll wear them wen i get thin. But that situation never comes n I end up wearing the same old clothes. At a time I have one pair of jeans which i wear till it's worn out. (ofcourse i have other pairs too, whibh i wear wen the fav one has gone for washing)

23) People have an opinion that I listen to only English music, but I love hindi music n some old songs too.

22) I am more closer to my Mom than to my Dad.

21) I love to work under pressure. It is the only way i can work.

20) I love cycling in summers and walking in winters.

19) I extremly emotional person. I can cry in an instant, u can never guess wat might hurt me.

18) As a kid I used to cry a lot n i used to mostly breakdown in front of people. Then in clg it was a little lesser but still it was a lot. Now, cry when no one is watching but i still cry a lot.

17) I can have only one good friend at a time. And when I have that friend, I forget everyone else.

16) I hate it when people throw garbage on the street or the road. Wat r dustbins for.

15) I love other people's children. I find kids very interesting. I really dont know if i would want kids of my own.

14) I think a lot esp. when people dont want me to think!!

13) I'm not afraid of the dark, but I am extremely scared of silence.

12) Forgiving people is easy for me, wat is tougher for me is forgiving myself.

11) I'm not a very neat person, but in my room I know where each thing is kept.

10) I love bossing around people.

9) I'm talkative around people who dont talk n quiet around people who talk a lot. (n ultimately it depends on my mood)

8) I get bored easily. The topics of discussion have to keep changing to keep me interested in a discussion.

7) I get impatient very easily. Things have to keep happening around me.

6) I take a lot of tym to adjust n accept new things. Be it places or be it people.

5) I love looking outside the window of a moving car or a train.

4) As a kid, I was really afraid of water. Never used to enter a boat or cross a bridge(over a small river).

3)I change my opinions according to people around me. But, that doesnt mean that i dont have an opinion abt something. I have very strong opinions abt evrything, it's just that I dont like arguing. I dont think I have to prove myself to anybody execpt myself.

2) I love reading, but orkut n facebook n gtalk are the biggest enemies of my reading habit. :P

1) I binge when I'm stressed.

Ah!! I cud come up with 25 lesser known things abt me. and in less than 30 mins. Wow im impressed with myself :P

Why r we so afraid of death?

Today morning while going to office my cab was going to meet with an accident. We were all saved by our driver's presence of mind and quick reaction. Kudos to him!! But, the most interesting thing was the reaction of the people around me.

I'll start with my reaction. Let me tell u that I'm a bit slow with my reactions, so because the incident took only 5-6 secs to occur it didn't really strike to me that we could die. HA HA!!

But the person sitting infront of me n everyone else was so shaken. They thanked God for saving them. They speculated what could have happened n blah blah!!

All this time I was thinking, why are we so all afraid of death. Is it because of the unexpected? i.e. we don't know what happens after death. What happens after we die? There are so many theories- the concept of going into a tunnel meeting, then the person u were the most close to n that person holding your hand and taking u towards light; the concept of hell and heaven, etc etc. All these are so interesting to read. But, do we need to complicate things so much.

Another reason I can think of is that we haven't seen n experienced so many things yet. So, does that mean you r not satisfied with your life. Then y r u letting such a situation come. Death could come at anytime, maybe today, maybe after 60 years. Why deny this fact? Why ask for another day? why let such situations come up that u have to ask for another day? Why not make a conscious effort not to sour relationships and betray people, make an effort to be happy and to make people happy around you.

There can be a thousand other reasons, but tell me do we even need to think about these reasons? Why cant we believe that nothing happens, that we just die. N there is nothing apart from that that happens. No soul and no after life.

Yeah, maybe a afterlife, but in the minds of people i.e. that people remember you. When they think about you they feel happy, they think about the happy times you had with them. That is the only afterlife I can think of. I personally do this a lot. I was very close to my grandfather. Whenever I'm extremely troubled, I just close my eyes and imagine him sitting in front of me. And I discuss my problems/worries with him. Seeking a solution from him. Though he never talks backs but i know he is listening. All the time he is stroking my head or patting my back, showing that he is there. I feel lighter after this and am able to think of a solution also!! According to me, this is afterlife. (Ah! i moved away from the topic)

N moreover, why be scared of something you've never seen. Why be scared of death when it is the only inevitable thing in life.

Returning to my first love...

It's been such a long time since I've been with you. U filled my life with color. Clear, pure, simple colors. Red, green, blue, yellow, and orange. Oh! so beautiful. The colors so transparent that they showed what lay underneath. And, no matter was underneath, it made you look even more beautiful.

I remember the first time I was with you, I messed it up totally. My hand was shaky and I was nervous. However, at least I realized what my mistakes were. So, the next tym I took care of all my mistakes. And you came out to be so pretty and after that there was no looking back.

I still remember the hours spent with you. Days n nights just used to pass without a worry. Being with you was such a pleasure. Your company made me smile, it made me laugh. I used to show u off in front of my friends. U made me happy.

You had cold exteriors, but you had placid interiors. All I knew was that I needed just the right amount of creativity to bring out the true you.

How could I be bored of you? How could I give up on you?

But, now im going to come back to you. Im going to return to my first love. Im going to make another you. Im going to make another beautiful Glass Painting. :) :)

Pursuit of Happyness

Somebody once told me "Happiness is all around you, you just have to go grab it."

Have you ever asked yourself - what makes you happy?

Hmm... the answers could be friends, family, love, chocolates, good food, appreciation, running, cycling, etc etc.

I keep asking this question to myself. N yesterday, i finally got the answer. The answer was none of the options given above. I always thot it was one of these. But, it wasn't.

What makes me happy is not friends, not family, not love etc... It's my mind. If my mind is in a positive mood, then everything will be good around me. If it negative, then even if thing r going on just fine, I'll perceive them as negative. This is the power of my mind.

Some of u might disagree with this. U may say that if u have one of these then ur mind wud be positive. I'd say if u r positive then u wud have everyone of these. Lets take an example. Suppose u r a very critical person. U keep criticising everything u see n have. Then wud u have friends? No. Wud ur family want to talk to u? Maybe yes, but for not more than 5 mins before they also star getting irritated... Wud u have love? Never, u'll be really lucky if u have. In contrast, if u r a very positive person, then u'll attract everybody towards u. U'll have friends, ur family wud appreciate u, n of course love wud be there...

N frm where does all this positivity come from. It comes from ur own thinking, your own mind.

In the end i'll conclude by saying:

"If happiness is within you, then it is all around you."

Wat made me happy today?

This post is about the little things that made me happy today:

1) early morning seeing the peahen run behind the peacock, and the peacock running away from the peahen.

2) Seeing a Peacock perched majestically on top of the roof- it looked so royal, like he is the King of the world. Standing tall with such dignity.

3) seeing the lilies and walking barefoot on the grass- makes me feel so peaceful.

4)Me completing 1 year at my job.

5)while planning for a treat Nis using "roadside hacker" instead of "roadside hawker". Okay, I'll tell the story. Wat happened was that everybody was asking for a treat for the one year anniversary. But, we three (the new joinees) were reluctant. We said which is the cheapest restaurant here. we'll take you there. And, then Nis said " there are no hackers here, otherwise i wud have taken u there." Everybody now was puzzled. wat did she mean. then we realized that she was talkin about roadside hawkers n we were in splits.

6)Sasha using "precipitation" instead of "perspiration". Today was a day of slip of tongues :P. The story for this is : while goin to the 14 sector market, we (Att, Chin, Praj, Sasha, and me) saw some guys relieving. Can't people just find a loo!! Then, Att and me started laughing and said lets say shame shame poppy shame!! Sasha said "they'll stop going to the loo then." Then, Prajl said "Then will they use their neighbour's loo." Sasha said in a serious tone "No, they'll loose all the water by precipitation." Precipitation!!! or perspiration. Just imagine loosing all the water by precipitation. We started laughing so hard that our stomachs ached.

7)Me goin to Praj's cube n commenting on his silly facebook status updates. U seem like a demented kid. And then again we laughed so hard.

8)Seeing about 50 parrots perched on the top most branch of a tree. Seeing the about 100 pigeons sitting in a line on a electricity cable.

9)Sitting in my garden enjoying the greenery n the cool evening breeze.

Today the whole day I was sulking, I wasn't happy. But, looking back I've realized there were so many good instances that had occurred. N I've had a hearty laugh just writing about them. So, from now on, I'll not wait for such moments to occur, I'll make them occur. I'll be excited about every moment.

Blooming Lilies

Yesterday evening while strolling in my garden I noticed some lily buds in one of the sections of my garden. Little green buds just waiting to bloom. I thot that they'll take at least 2 to 3 days to blossom. They were were happily swaying in the wind. Teasing me, saying "u'll have to wait a little while more, to see us blossom. Not so fast, not so fast." I just smiled and thot "I'll wait. Don't ya worry."


Then, today morning (6 A.M) when I got up, I went outside. Just for a little walk, some stretching, some thinking, and some pondering. What was the first thing I noticed in the garden? I saw some 20 lilies were about to blossom. Their petals had only slightly open. They hadn't blossomed fully till now. They looked so beautiful. They looked so pretty. They looked so pure. They had little dew drops on them. The dew shining in the soft light of the sun. It was sheer bliss, watching them. I wish I had taken their picture. I admired them and then went inside after a while.


At 9 A.M. I, again, went outside with the sole purpose of seeing the lilies. By this time they had blossomed fully. Pretty white lilies and that also so many of them. Looking at them was a treat to my eyes and my mind. When I looked at them, I felt so peaceful. Like there is just this moment of purity and naturalness and nothing else to dilute the moment. Thank you pretty white lilies to give me such a moment of exhilaration.


Just love the "The pretty white lilies."Can't wait for more of them to blossom!!!

Stages of my Anger

Recently I've been very angry with some people. And I've observed the various stages of my anger. It is amazing the way I've reacted towards these people. The way I've reacted has varied from complete denial of what they said and did to complete acceptance with some stages in between. So, here are the stages of my anger:

First comes complete denial. I'll try to deny to the core what he/she has said and done. I'll say it's okay, perfectly natural. It doesnt matter. I'll support that person.

Then it hits me, I become angry. How could he/she do this? Didn't he/she think once about me/others before doing this?

Then, I begin to hate that person. Say he/she is heartless, mean, irresponsible, selfish, and arrogant. I dont want to talk to him/her ever again. But, then I'd been such good friends with these people so how could I give them up so easily.

So, i try to talk normally with that person. But, things r not the same again. The way that i perceive them changes, so I can never talk to them the same way.

So, after that i begin to hate myself for ever being friends with these people. I begin to hate myself for not seeing the signs before. For believing all the lies they said and showed.
And, if i reach this stage, then Im done with the friendship. It's over. It is at this stage that I decide whether to carry on or to give up. And, 90% of the times I give up. Somehow I dont think so I can ever forgive someone, if they've hurt me. It is the toughest thing for me. But, thats the way I am.

Looking for some inspiration

Its been a long tym that I've written something. It's not that ideas aren't coming. It's just that I'm not able to write. I write three sentences and that's it. Im done. I have nothing else to write. I've done this almost 5 times now. Just now able to build upon an idea. Hmm...I think I need some inspiration, some comedy, some tragedy in my life.

Life's pretty slow these days. Not much work in office. 1 days work is done in 5 days. I've been missing almost all my deadlines. But, it's okay. Friends have been moving away. Friendships are being hit by misunderstandings. But, again it's okay. I know everything will be cleared. (as a matter of fact I'm counting on that, because till now it hasn't really hit me.) I've tried to drown myself in work. But, now there is paucity of work. So, cant do that also. And, moreover how can one run away from something and find solace in something else.

The worst part of this phase is that im not inspired to paint or sketch. No inspiration at all. Im just looking for some inspiration.

(I know this is just a half hearted post to write 'something')